where to begin.

first of all, i know that should be a question mark and not a period on the title. i did it on purpose (grammar rebel, yea.)

secondly, i'm sick... at home... so i figured i should put my down time to good use and write a post.

no on to the 'good' stuff:
as i'm sure that you have noticed, i have had many revelations in the past 7 weeks about the character of God and his love for me as his child. i wish so much that i could put into words all the things that are bouncing around in my head just waiting to be processed, sorted through, and put into action. several hours a day, five days a week is quite a bit of information. i expected to go into a spiritual high when i came here, but thankfully that didn't happen. (i'm fairly sure that i'm immune to spiritual highs at this point in my life.) i have been changed in ways that i can never go back. there has been a shift in my heart that will never be shifted back. this is a new beginning for me.

me and two of my friends here have talked about what we're going to do after this DTS... i'm becoming daily more aware that it would be impossible to go back to my old life. i knew this would be a career move for me when i entered YWAM, i don't think that i realized what exactly that meant until recently. with the love of Christ come passion... how can you not be passionate about a God who loves as much as God does? passion on the other hand requires action.

Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything i have commanded you. and surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."
-- Matthew 28:18-20

he didn't say go when you have all the money you need. he didn't say go until you get married. he didn't say go when the time is 'right'. What does that even mean, anyway?! he just said go. he also didn't say it had to be halfway around the world, or across the country, or just to the needy countries. i happen to believe that God has a specific place in his ministry for every single person. whether it be the one to support people in the needy nations, or the one to work with the kids who live across the street from you, or the one who is going into a war torn country to show people the hope they can have in Jesus. there is a place for everyone and all that you a required to do is ask him where, listen to his answer, and obey. it's that simple.

if you truly believe that God loves you just as much as he does his one and only son, which he does - he loves you just as you are HIS son or HIS daughter, then how can you NOT share that with everyone you come in contact with.

a preach all this to say, that i definitely feel like my life is headed in the direction of missions. do i know exactly where? no. do i know exactly what my life will look like after dts? no. do i have a plan? no. the only thing i know is this: DTS is just the beginning.

stay tuned.